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This is about the time when I begin getting super stressed about school and everything else about life.

It's November, which means that the semester is almost over, which means final exams are nearing. It'll happen a lot quicker than I expect, I'm sure. I've got a music exam on Wednesday. I've got two projects for sculpture: a caricature of Ben Stiller and a copper tube abstract sculpture. I have a logo project for typography, which in reality is more like 4 projects compiled into one. My history of graphic design is lectures for now, since we just had an exam and project to turn in. My color theory class still has a lot in play. The canvas I've been working on is ALMOST finished... It needs one more color exercise on it. I'm hoping the last project for that class is a lot less tedious. When I get the chance, I'll try to take pictures of my projects and put them up. My mask is up on facebook. lol That still has to be turned in. *Sigh. I wish my sculpture teacher had specific dates on when projects would be turned in, instead of measuring out who's done and who's not. I finished my projects fast and then it's like I never turn 'em in. Blah.

I still hate my typography teacher.

Ok, I need to stop stressing out over school. I need to look at everything positively, so I don't begin hating it and start missing classes. Haha, that'd be a bad habit to start.

Let's see... My nose has been acting funny lately. I'm hoping I don't get a cold. I've been trying to dress warm when it's too cold.

What else...

Chris's job has been a pain in the ass lately. They've only been scheduling him like 3 shifts in a week for the past 2 weeks, instead of the regular 5 shifts. They know that that is his only job and 3 shifts isn't enough to live off of. This week he actually got 4 shifts. We've been trying not to go out and spend. We're trying to save up money, so that we can afford to go out and have fun. Like seriously, we went to the movies last night for the first time in a long ass time. I don't remember the last time we went. (We saw Saw VI and it was disgusting as shit!) We've really just been in the apartment every night watching downloaded movies and playing video games. We don't go out to eat really either... Only on the weekend when his parents call us or the weekly Sunday lunch/dinner with his grandparents. Plus I've been trying to get a job still so that I can help relieve some of that stress off of Chris. This world sucks. I think people look at my resume and think like damn, she looks young, has no experience, and she's 20! I don't want to work in Taco Bell or McDonald's or whatever. No fast food! I don't think I could work in a restaurant, so I've been trying Michael's, B&N, Borders, Macy's, JoAnn's, etc. No luck unfortunately.

I'll save your eyes/ears and stop complaining.

Last night, Chris, Connor, and I were going to go to the park and jam... but Connor wasn't home, so instead Chris and I went to see Saw VI. Gory. Disgusting. Are we supposed to expect a 7th movie? I feel like it could end right there.

Chris works this week... Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. All night shifts. I'm hoping the restaurant doesn't blow him off like what Sears did. *Crosses fingers.

Ok, that's enough. I need to get started on my research for my social commentary/activism paper for music. Anyone know any 2 good songs (by different artists and genres) who sing about a broad social interest, like the environment, natural/manmade disasters, child welfare, domestic abuse, gang violence, war, politics, etc. Songs of a more personal nature are ok if they speak to a broad audience (loneliness, mental illness, drug/alcohol abuse) So basically, songs about love, sex, cars, the joys of rock and roll, or sports are bad. lol

So yeah, just throw out some songs please. :]

I finally received my damn license after 2.5 months. My picture sucks. I didn't think they'd take a picture right after I'd passed the written part. Boo!

New projects...
Typography: I am making a comic book film poster.
History of Graphic Design: I am making the alphabet out of recycled stuff.
Color Theory: Painting and studying colors. Very tedious work. It's more about the process than the ending project itself.
Sculpture: A caricature of Ben Stiller and Alex the lion. A masquerade mask.

Trying to apply at Sur La Table. It's a kitchen shop... Maybe if I get it, I'll be able to buy all these baking stuff. Haha.

Uh, what else...
I've been coupon hunting now. Living on my own makes me afraid to spend my money. That's one reason why I haven't gone shopping for any winter clothes or gotten my haircut. I also want a curling iron and a new dress so I can look good for the holidays. lol *Sigh.

I register for classes on Nov4. By the looks of it, I'll probably only be able to sign up for 4 classes. Lame. I may or may not sign up for more classes just to fill in gaps in my schedule. *Shrug.

Tomorrow, I need to go grocery shopping and do laundry. Grr.

Ok, the end.

I haven't updated in so long... I don't know really where to begin because I don't know where I left off. Haha, that's how long it's been. Well... I'll just type then.

I turned in a project today in my typography class. We had to make 3 different music ads (alternative, country, and classical). My teacher started critiquing everyone's project... he started out like he was in a good mood, then he got to one and that's when it all went downhill. Mine was the one he critiqued after that bad one. FUCK. He didn't say much about my design, but he ripped my project, saying it wasn't mounted well. I would have preferred it if he pointed that out and took off the necessary points but fuck man. I worked hard on putting that fucking project together and I was really proud of my work, and you go on and rip it. I almost cried in class because I was so upset that he ripped it. I mean, I wanted to keep it because I thought it looked good, but now that it's fucking ripped, I'm going to have to mount it all over again or leave it as is. That really pisses me off.

Onto another subject before I get really angry.

On Wednesday night I had a nightmare. It felt so real that I started bawling in my sleep and because of that I woke Chris up. It went like this...

Chris and I were at some pool party. Lauren and Marissa were there... A bunch of other college students were there too. I was mingling with my friends because I hadn't seen them in awhile. As I was doing that, I noticed girls checking out Chris. I got a little upset because he seemed to be enjoying it. I told Marissa that I wanted to go on a walk, so she and I went up this hill and I sat behind this concrete wall to hide myself. I wasn't happy. Chris came up to see what was the deal. I told him that he wasn't paying any attention to me and we started arguing. Tension rose and I said that I hated him. He stormed off and I stayed hidden. A few minutes later, Lauren comes up and she says, "Audrey... He said that it's over." I was speechless as my eyes filled with tears. I looked around the wall I was hiding behind, and I saw Chris making out with this blonde whore in a red bikini and he was hella feeling her up. I cried so hard in my dream that I cried in real life. I was panting and gasping between every burst of tears. Chris woke up, and he said, "Audrey, honey, what's wrong? Audrey, wake up. Honey?" I finally came to my senses a bit and realized that it was a dream, but I was still crying so hard because it felt so real. He held me in his arms and continued to ask what was the matter, and so I tried to tell him. It was difficult to get words out when you bawl. But he held me tight and said, "It's ok, honey. It's just a dream. I'd never do that to you." He just held me until I went back to my normal breathing.

I don't ever want to experience a feeling like that in real life. That hurts so much... And it was just a dream. I think I've only woken up crying that hard 2 times. This time, and another time was a dream about Monica.

Anyway, after that dream, I feel like the universe is trying to tell me something. Like a warning... I know it's not going to be Chris breaking up with me, but it could be something else.

After awhile, we talked about it, and Chris said that he was upset that I had the dream and said, "But I didn't do anything." lol I was like, "I know, but it just felt real." We just laughed. lol

Ok, something a little happier...

Yesterday, Chris and I had the whole day off. I had furlough days. Chris wasn't scheduled for work. In the morning, I told him I needed to go buy some materials for my project, so we went to do that. Near the art store, there's a Guitar Center. Chris was like, "Let's go in there, just to see what's there." I agreed... and we actually fell in love with this djembe drum. (image to left) At first, we just looked at it... And we left the store, and went to other music stores to compare prices or see if there was a cooler design. At the end of traveling, I convinced Chris to buy it. :] He was definitely happy. The guy at Guitar Center was cool. He invited us to come check out the Drum Off... He asked Chris how long he's played, and Chris said, "14 years" And the guy was all giving him a hard time asking him why he didn't sign up to compete. lol I was giving him a hard time too. But we now know that sign ups start in August. I told him that he better get practicing, because when August rolls around, I'm signing up him if he doesn't do it.

We went to the drum off that night... it was pretty cool. The guy I guessed would win, did win. Which is good, thankfully. He definitely deserved it after playing for 25+ years. The other guy who was ok was 18 years old, but he seemed cocky. He had all his emo friends there, who by the way, ALL looked dirty as hell. It was gross. But, his music was cool, but like there wasn't any groove. The guy who won definitely had groove, and his finale was sick as fuck. lol So yeah, he deserved to win.

*Sigh,  yeah. That's pretty much all I have to update for now. I'm really tired... I've been sick on and off for the past week. I'm hoping that my health picks up soon.

Oh, one last thing... Heroes kindof sucks this season. Family Guy is definitely still funny as hell. Yay for new Family Guy episodes!

Ok. Bye.

Sunday was one insane day.

First, Chris and I are just chilling. He, his dad, and I go out to lunch at Chapala Grill. Mmm Mexican food. :] After that, Chris and I decide to go visit garage sales to find more things for our apartment. We went to one, and didn't find anything cool/useful. We go to the next. Same results. On our way to another place, there was a car that decided to make a last minute turn, and Chris had to swerve around the car. Well, in this part of town, there aren't side walks or extra road space to go around them. It was something like where the road meets the gravel/dirt. As we're going around the car, I see this deep pothole, and in my head, I'm like, "This is not good." But it was too late to say anything, and we hit it. Chris immediately said, "I have a flat." And I was like, "Really?" lol We pull off to the side, and Chris goes to see it. Yup. Flat.

So, we get all our handy dandy tools from the trunk, and I'm watching and learning how to lift the car with the jack and change the tire. I pretty much knew how to do it already. We were doing this while in the blistering heat! No trees were near us to give us any shade while we changed the tire. Finally, he got the wheel removed, and when we get the spare tire, we find out that that mother fucker is flat too! Fuck our lives. Luckily, his dad wasn't at work or something. [Susan was in Florida.] So we call Randy and we tell him where we are. We stand outside next to the car for what seemed like half an hour. We maybe only stood there for about 15 minutes, but with the heat, it made it SO miserable. We really needed water. So we went to the house we got the flat in front of, and we ask if we could borrow their hose to drink some water. But the lady was nice and told us to come in, and she gave us ice cold water. We stayed in there for a short while, while we waited for Randy.

Once Randy got there, we thanked the nice folks, and hopped into Randy's car. We took the spare and got it filled, and then went back to the Kia to put the spare on. We thanked Randy for helping us, and Chris and I went to Firestone to see what they could do. They couldn't do anything, of course, since the rim was dented in. The next day, Chris called countless places to see if he could get the rim in immediately, since my driver's test was the next day (Tuesday). But the best he could get was to get overnight shipping. He said he tried really hard to get it shipped that day, but unfortunately, we didn't. So I rescheduled my driver's test for August 10. That's ok though, even though I was all prepared to take the test.

So yeah, that was my dilemma. Haha. I also saw Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. It was pretty sweet. Except I didn't like the ending too much. I thought that was pretty lame. I'd have to agree with Lauren that the acting was definitely much better. The special effects, of course, are amazing. There was one part in the movie that surprised me and I actually flinched, but I can't remember which part that was. lol Chris flinched too. lol

Hmm, what else...

Oh, I signed up for another volunteer position from RescueMe.org. Basically what I'd do is photoshop pictures and make them look good for the different animal shelters. I specifically applied for Shiba Inus. I could apply for other breeds. For now, I'll do that. They sent me an email... Basically a test to see how well I can photoshop. lol So I'm just waiting for the email back.

Well, now I'm talking with my friend from 4th grade, Brittany, whom I haven't talked to in forever! So BYE!

These are only pictures from Susan's camera... I still have no idea how I'm going to get pictures from the rest of Chris's family. We'll just have to wait and see...

Anyway, here you go... ( Click )

Yesterday was July 9.
I miss Monica.
Can't believe it's only been 4 years.
Feels longer.
I hope the Ahres are doing well, also.
I can't remember the last time I went to see Monica...
Hmm, was that with Marissa?
Damn my crappy memory. :[

Anyway, I miss you, Lovely.
I still think about you frequently.
I love you very much.



On a different note, there are movies I want to see!
Harry Potter comes out on the 15th. I'm stoked about that.
I want to see Bruno too. I recently watched Borat and thought it was hilarious.
The trailer for Bruno was great. lol
Hmm, I also want to see The Last Airbender movie by M. Night. Shyamalan.
I watched the cartoon version of that on Nickelodeon. lol It was really good.
If you haven't seen the new Pixar film, Up, then you should go buy tickets right now!!!
GO! GO! GO!
:]

I want to go to Magic Mountain and ride all the roller coasters.
I also want Japanese food. It's too bad Chris doesn't like it so much.
I want to get back into reading too. Although it's hard to find books I'm interested in.

Ok, whatever. The end.

The only person who makes my life worth living
Is the only person who has shown me
That I'm worth living for.


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There's something in the way you laugh.
It makes me feel brand new.
Many things confuse me.
But you constantly amuse me.
Your lips and your blue eyes.
Damn, I want you to abuse me.
(OH SNAP! ;] LOL)


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Anxious and eager,
Crazy ecstatic.
Breathing so hard,
I feel asthmatic.

Time go faster!
I want August 1, 2009.
Super antsy.
I need to unwind.

How?
I'll write.
When?
Tonight.
I might even put up a fight.
(Just kidding.)

I want to take naps and play video games
Without feeling guilty or lazy.
I want my own space
Where the room gets a little hazy.
(OH SNAP! ;] LOL)

As you can see
I've become restless.
I can't wait any longer
I confess.


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LOL Ok, that's enough with my interesting rhymes. I hope you enjoyed my weirdness. :P Now I'm off to go find something else to kill an hour. Wheeeee!

Here are the pictures I said I'd post... I had taken 370+ pictures, and I uploaded 80 to my photobucket. I'm not sure how many will make it on here. lol ( Say Cheese! )

So I'm going to start with Friday the 12th. Chris sliced his thumb while bussing tables. He said it went in pretty deep, and he thinks it hit the bone. He came home and his face was super white. I was so worried. I drove him to the ER, and he got 2 stitches in. He was in major pain the first couple of nights.

So the road trip...

We just got back from a road trip last night. We drove up to Sacramento, and over to Reno... We stayed a few minutes in Reno to take pictures of the city and whatnot. We drove about 13 hours through Nevada and Utah, and made it to Salt Lake City. On our way in, it was super rainy. The rain was coming down hard, and we could barely see out the window. We were going like 80 mph, and the truck drivers were zooming past us like crazy! I remember one particular truck that flashed its brights, telling us to move so he can pass us. It was scary with all that rain! lol Anyway, we checked into a hotel at about 11p. Chris and I went down to the hot tub to relax our muscles after that long drive, and then wee went up to our room to crash and wake up early again to drive.

We woke up at about 7a, and we drove about 12 hours through the rest of Utah and Wyoming to North Platte, Nebraska for a family reunion. I met a good portion of Chris's dad's side of the family. We basically just hung out there. While we were there, they had this fun idea of floating down the North Platte river in floaties. lol Chris and I were going to share a boat thing. So we get there, and like, we were told that the water was high, but we pretty much walked the whole way down... We were told it was like 6 miles long, and we walked about half of that! lol The deepest part was maybe up to my shins. And we wore shoes, and sand would fill them up, so that made it more difficult to walk. The next day we went to watch the parade. That was fun because it was pretty much for the kids... Chris's nephews, Ben and Davey, really enjoyed it. It was fun hanging out with everyone.

On Sunday morning, we left early once again to drive to Colorado. We kindof made a last minute stop to see Chris's Aunt Pam in Fort Collins. We had lunch with her and her son, Sam. We didn't stay for very long. We left Fort Collins at about noon, and drove down to Loveland. Chris's bio mom, Kathy, her husband, Scott, and their daughter, Tasha, live there. I met Tasha online. lol It was nice to meet everyone. We stayed there for the night. Just relaxed basically.

The next morning, we left at about 10:30a and drove to Castle Rock. Chris's best friend from high school, Pat, lives there. I met him and his whole family. He has a son, Philip. The minute I meet him, he's like, "Do you want to play Lego Star Wars?" lol I was like, "Yeah! I love that game!" lol He was all excited. For that night, we just had calzones and played video games. lol

The next day though, we (Chris, Pat, and I) went to Elitch's Gardens Theme Park. Chris was all nervous because he is afraid of heights, but he rode anyway. It was lots of fun. We rode just the run roller coasters. lol There was one of those wet log rides with the bridge over it so that people get wet... Well, Chris went by himself the first time thinking that the wave wasn't going to reach him, but then as the people came down, a huge wave came toward Chris and he bolted out of there. It was so funny! lol Then he and Pat gave me all of their things (cell phones, wallet, keys, etc) and they stood on the bridge. Haha, as soon as they were off the bridge, they were so soaked! It was too funny. After that, we were hungry so we went to downtown Denver and grabbed some food. We talked about a lot of random things. lol It was nice to just chill out and not be stressed or exhausted. After that, we went back to Pat's house and played video games. Haha, and somewhere that night, we went to Dairy Queen and got cookie dough blizzards.

The next morning, we had to say our goodbyes once more, and our drive continued... Chris and I drove 14 hours all the way to Vegas. We got there at about 7:30p, but it took us another hour to get down the strip and find a hotel we want to stay at. We stayed at the New York New York hotel. We got a room with a jacuzzi in it. lol We were so hungry and so tired by the time we got up to the room, that we decided to just order room service. lol It was so fucking bomb! After dinner, we just relaxed in the jacuzzi tub.

The next morning, we woke up at about 8:30a and got ready. We left the car and our luggage with the hotel, and walked up and down the strip. We went into the Bellaggio, the Venetian, the MGM. We were going to eat at a buffet, but changed our minds and got Panda Express instead. lol A lot cheaper. :P Chris tried the slot machines outside, and won $50 in credit. He had to get it approved, and play the inside machines, and ended up losing it. lol We also went into GameWorks just to see what was there... and it was just an arcade. lol But while we were walking in there, a lady was like, "You guys want this card? There's about 2 hours of game play on there." Haha, we were like, "Yeah, sure." Sweet! We played for awhile, and then left. Before leaving, we went into the MGM because I wanted to see the lions. lol But they were sleeping. After all of that, we went back to the NYNY hotel and got our luggage and the car and headed back home. We got back last night at about 9p.

It was a really fun vacation. Probably one of the best vacations I've had in awhile. It was nice to meet so many people even though I was scared and nervous. lol But I had a lot of fun. Everyone at the family reunion was like, "Are you guys going to get married?", "We love her. Chris you better take care of her." lol "Next time we see you, you'll be married and have kids." lol Apparently I was a hit with Chris's family. lol That makes me feel good, because I know I'm not going anywhere. lol :P Even Chris's bio mom and half sister kept saying how pretty I am.

OK! That's enough about the road trip.

So I'm back in Fresno. Glad to be back, and at the same time, not. lol

Last night was an interesting night...

At around 10PM, thunder and lightning were taking over the dark skies. I was in Chris's room by myself, waiting for him to come home. I sent him a text saying that I didn't like the thunder and random flashes of light. Yeah, it's a little scary for me.

He finally came home, and we were just hanging out, talking about our evening. I get up from the bed to get him his pink lemonade from the dresser. Then all of a sudden, the power goes out. My heart started racing, and I whined for Chris. I absolutely do not like the dark. I hate it. I just stood in one spot until he reached for me.

He found a flash light and led me to the kitchen to get small dishes to put the candles in. I grabbed a hold of the garter of his basketball shorts while we walked to the kitchen and back.

I'm such a baby.


Also, we are going to Nebraska. Family reunion. Chris's dad's side of the family. Chris and I are driving... And on the way, we're going to stop in Colorado to visit his bio mom, her husband, and daughter, Tasha (who I've met online). We're leaving the 17th and coming back the 22nd. I'm pretty excited. I mean, from what I've heard, Nebraska doesn't have much to do... But it'll be a different place other than lame ass Fresno. So yay! lol


To Lauren and Marissa and possibly Rhyen: I hope I get to see you cool cats soon!